August 14, 2022
Trauma, Freeze, and Consent
It has been said that trauma is a thief. Whatever it was that happened, the worst of it often lies downstream. The events may have been horrific, in and of themselves, but trauma also steals from us our future and our self respect. Like interest on a maxed out credit card the effects of trauma are compounded daily. Especially when it happened early in life. As children we are usually considerably outmatched by our aggressors. The default stress response is to flee or to fight back. But when we are small this is usually not an option. Children facing violence, abuse, or violations of their boundaries and bodies have but one option: to survive it. A third stress response called Freeze takes over. Freeze is a shut down of all physical and emotional responses. It is akin to the opossum playing dead. The goal is to live. We go into shock, into paralysis, and then we dissociate, leaving our bodies to the circumstances at hand.
August 13, 2022
Falling Into The Fire
It all actually started for me when I fell into the fire on Summer Solstice of 2019. It’s been a long 3 years. I don’t know about you but I was taken down to zero. I fought it. I was not going to go down. I’m tenacious, I’m stubborn. But over and over again I got the message to let go. To die the shamn's death. And finally I did. I’m sure this happened to many of you over the COVID time-out.
I literally fell into a ceremonial fire, landed with my left hand on a log of burning embers and was apparently engulfed in flames, briefly. I heard this voice say "This is an intitation." Then came the unraveling. And the reformatting. And the alchemy. You see, at the core of this was the call for me to heal from a lifetime of what I call freeze. It’s one of the three states we can go into when events are too big to face. We run. We fight. Or we freeze. My go-to was to freeze.
May 12, 2021
Cracking Open The Egg: From the Jungle to the Mountains, Integration, and Life After Psychedelics
Psychedelic therapies are on the rise. They are being touted as healing remedies for trauma, chronic pain, and as a catalyst for for spiritual awakening. There is great hope for a sort of spiritual revolution as some of our plant allies, and even psychedelic chemical derivatives, help us to overcome our limitations and reclaim our true nature. Significant research is being done at reputable Universities such as Johns Hopkins showing the healing effects of psychedelics in trauma therapy. People are finding microdosing psilocybin more effective and with less side effects than antidepressants. Evidence suggests these plant allies have been with us since the beginning as an essential part of our healing practices. It is important to give these allies great respect, to know they are not for everyone, and it also important to understand where their job begins and where it ends.
January 01, 2021
Does Distant Healing Work Really Work?
Do distance healing sessions work?
Yes, they most definitely do! Energetic work is not bound by space or time. I do not have to be with you physically to pull through the healing energies, track the origins of your woundings, or blocks, or to sweetly support you as you are processing your stuff. All of that CAN be done over the phone, Skype, or Zoom with deep and profound results. You just need a quiet uninterrupted space to be for 90 mins so we can dig in. With everyone home that is the real challenge of distant work these days!
Quote from a client who reluctantly accepted that her in person session must be done over the phone now: "I cannot thank you enough for yesterday's session. It was so incredibly powerful, eye opening, healing and the list goes on... My spirit feels lighter and not so heavy."
April 02, 2020
Coherence instead of Chaos: Find the solution, not the blame
Coherence Instead of Chaos
So... as I tire of all the blaming and finger pointing, however merited it might be, I find myself, at times, watching old movies... and just as I popped into the middle of one, Sean Connery’s character in Rising Sun says the following:
“The Japanese have a saying, ‘Fix the problem, not the blame.’ Find out what's f-ed up and fix it. Nobody gets blamed. We're always after who f-ed up.”
Yes, we in the west THIVE on blame. But it is a victim perspective, and a complete waste of energy. It doesn’t solve the problem, it just creates more angst and division.
We are all in this together! Yes, mistakes have been made. Of course they have. We are all in new territory here and the learning curve is steep. We are learning from our mistakes. That is at the core of developing wisdom. No one has all the answers. We are finding them now. We must be our own authorities now instead of hoping mommy and daddy will fix it.
The way we step out of victim is by assuming our own authority. We need to be asking ourselves how can I help instead of who is to blame. We all have our spheres of influence. Ask yourself how you can help within yours. It’s the little things even... but it’s energy put in the direction of a constructive solution.
The more we unite in solving the problems, the more the angst level goes down. Angst creates chaos. When we work together for the same cause we step into unity consciousness. Unity consciousness means we step out of digging into the egoic divisions that separate us, and give us claims to being “right,” and into the collective consciousness of serving our humanity. Our humanity. Yes! OUR humanity.
This is our humanity that is at stake here. No other life form is being shaken to the core. Each of us is an aspect of that collective consciousness. Your thoughts and your actions are all part of this collective organism. We are being asked to bring our individual awareness to what we bring to the equation. And then to act consciously, responsibly, constructively...
The virus comes to us as an outside agent, as something seemingly against us, because we have not found the way to unite from the inside. We both, the virus and humanity, come from the same mind. It is trying to do for us what we cannot do for ourselves, from within... until we can.
Can we not focus on peace and Unity for once? The enemy is within. The enemy is using these brilliant minds we have been given to judge and criticize, to play the eternal victim, to negate and minimize, to stratify and dominate, instead of to solve the problems at hand. It’s about frequency, vibration, and resonance. It’s about coherence!!!
Ask yourself... what can you do today to make this a better world? ❤️❤️❤️
December 01, 2016
A World Without Moorings
We are in a time that the Q'ero indians call a Pachakuti, where the world is shaken up and tuned upside down. It has been prophesied to come now, post 2012, where the Mayan calendar ends and a new world begins. The Q'ero went up into the mountains when the last Pachakuti came, as the Conquistadores overtook Peru... and in the 1950's they were directed to come back down off the mountains to help us navigate this next one. It is unsettling to say the least but we all signed up to be here now.
What we are looking at here is the end of an era. Who we have been as a species, and as a culture, is shifting. Some of the shadow parts of who we have been are begging to be seen. They have laid dormant, beneath the surface, operating in silence. Now they are out in the open. While this can be cause for concern, the good news is it is all above ground to be seen now.
November 17, 2016
A Hopi Elder Speaks
Time to revisit this one...
A Hopi Elder Speaks
"You have been telling the people that this is the Eleventh Hour, now you must go back and tell the people that this is the Hour. And there are things to be considered . . .
Where are you living?
What are you doing?
What are your relationships?
Are you in right relation?
Where is your water?
Know your garden.
It is time to speak your Truth.
Create your community.
Be good to each other.
And do not look outside yourself for the leader."
Then he clasped his hands together, smiled, and said, "This could be a good time!"
February 17, 2016
Are you loving from your wounds or from your heart?
Are you loving from your wounds or from your heart?
Your wounds say it will never last,
they say that there is not enough,
and they say there must be something wrong with you
because there isn't...
they say this person will hurt you...
Control the objects of your affections, they say, so you are not further
Your heart says love is everywhere, in everything.
It says you do not need to hold onto it in another,
because love will never go away.
It says you may see me in the eyes of a small child today
and in the whispering of the winds tomorrow,
but I will never leave you...
Forms come and go...
let the pain from their loss, dissolve into the darkness,
the deep velvety darkness
that fills the space between moments,
the gaps between forms...
In that womb,
that exists between each ending...
And before each new beginning,
you will find it...
Love that beats like a steady base line
that pulse that comes through your heart.
January 21, 2016
Looking at Permission
Wondering why someone would take, instead of earn, or ask for, something?
Even little things...
Even with someone we love and cherish...
Does Love mean you do not have to ask?
Looking at how it is standard in our culture to "act and apologize later..."
And how it is considered weak to say you are sorry...
How it is considered weak to ask for anything at all...
Having Respect is at the bottom of asking permission.
Somewhere we seem to have forgotten how to respect our fellow travelers,
our fellow beings...
Showing strength is somehow more important than showing respect...
What will it take for us to remember
That there is Strength in Humility?
That there is Peace in Respect?
What will it take?
What will it take for us to ask
Instead of take?
November 01, 2015
Judgement As A Form of Violence
I am looking at the energetics of Judgement this morning...
While each judgement we entertain feels like a private thought, judgements have an aggressive energy to them that is directed outward toward the judged.
Most of us do not take responsibility for this little piece of violence that we send out into the world, thinking it is shrouded within the privacy of our own minds...
But judgement has a palpable energy, one that creates distance
And one that is felt when it is directed at you.
We all know this...
Because we have all felt it...
I'm not saying any of us have mastered the knee jerk reaction to protect ourselves by judging...
But I am asking that we all take a step back into compassion
And take responsibility for what we are putting out there.
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